I wanted to take a moment to bring your attention to something that many have not thought about ... YOU ARE STILL HERE! (maybe there is a reason for this).
This may seem like a 'duh' comment, however think about it for a moment. In group rooms, meetings, and one on one's I hear LOTS of fears, worries, and anxieties about the future ... why?
Have you ever wondered where you were going to sleep before? Have you ever wondered where your next meal was going to come from (when you actually worried about eating)? Have you ever wondered how you were going to pay for something? Get somewhere? Get out of jail? Get your kids back? Be alive tomorrow? The answer to all of these, based on the people I have talked to is: YES!
So here is the 'epiphany' for you ~ You have already been hit by some of the hardest hits the world will ever throw at you, and yet here you are still!
Addiction claims 200,000 lives a year (not including alcohol), 26,000 people die from NON-Intentional overdoses, and 15,000 die from pain killers alone ... EACH YEAR!
So can you explain to me WHY you are so worried about the 'little things' in your life compared to 'where you are going to sleep, eat, or live' ? Is it that you look at your life as a 'failure', when you should be looking at it like a conquering hero? Have any 'normal' person deal with: how are they going to eat, where are they going to live, how are they going to get the money ... and they would lose their fucking minds!
You are the epitome of what a military instructor used to say: "It's very hard to beat a man, who never gives up!" People in addiction have started over ... again, and again, and again. You are like the fucking terminator ~ until it comes to recovery.
You have a spirit that can't be broken, you have the courage of a champion gladiator, you have the will of ... well, someone who has used drugs addictively! Find that dive in you again and aim it towards sobriety and YOU ... WILL ... NOT ... FAIL!
Who am I?
I have been called "Sirthinkalot" and "The mender of souls." I am an addiction specialist and a full-time psychology student on the way to Dr. Davis in clinical psychology. I am currently crusading for the expedited paradigm shift in addiction recovery!